Dream

You close your eyes and suddenly 

Everything is spinning in circles

It's intense and it's real

Then in a blink of an eye it's gone.

Everything is erased, no signs of existence. 

Its Just you now, your whole world is upside down. 

Your alone thinking to yourself if this is all just a bad dream.

Everything is gone and you're all alone. 

Your left with no answers, no reasons. 

Just questions that you cannot answer. 

But maybe it's not worth finding the answers. 

The only thing you can now do is turn your world upright again. Pick up the pieces on the ground.

It's over. And you just have to move forward alone.

That my friend, was the ending.

For good.

That night

These are not my words. But lovely.

Goodbye

It's a word that cuts you like a knife. 

It's one word can bring tears to your eyes 

Makes you feel like your whole world is falling around you. 

It's never an easy word to say, or hear. 

Just like those three little words that mean so much and can change your life for good, so can this.

Goodbye. 

It hurts. 

Is this the final last goodbye 

Or is it just for now?

Same story

April 17 2008,

...but see what I don't like is finally putting an old story to rest only to find that story showing up somewhere when you least expect it. Wanting to be opened and to be read again.......

Just like I wrote in 2008, 

It's the same story. 2014 

Right when you think you've put a story to rest, it comes back out of no where. 

It's like the first cold morning of fall. Just when you think you're used to the warm summer mornings the cold approaches. 

You realize it was never gone, you just sort of put it in the back of your mind. 

It makes you wonder that maybe we are supposed  to have cold fall mornings. I mean it's always going to be there. It always was. We have to have fall every year. And perhaps this story is always going to be on the shelf. Sure we don't read it all the time but it is your favorite book and every once in a while you like to read it again. Get lost in that moment. 

Life is funny like that. Every thing we put in the back of our mind there is something that always brings it back. Like a song, a joke you shared, a story that your friends tell. 

I guess that means no matter what it's going to be a part of your life whether you like it not not. 

We all start somewhere

It's been a few years since I've wrote. 

I've been so busy that I haven't let myself take a break and write. So many things have happened. Good and bad. Life has happend. But I'm not going to sit here and catch you up on my life. Instead, I'm going to use this blog for my thoughts and the things I want to write about. And by no means am I a professional so don't sit there and judge my writing. 

I lost the words for a while but I'm going to find them again.....